the emptiness fill up~

i cannot think a reason for this...
i cannot endure the feeling inside...
like a volcano bout to spit out but have no opening...
am i going to lost in space again?
wondering in the dull-land with looking for the answer for the unknown question...
as always i guest...
and always happen...
the emptiness fill up my empty heart...
again and again and again...
violating my heart...
tearing my soul...
feel just like wanna cry it out loud...
but pleaseeeee...
tell me...
what is the reason for this unknown feeling...
it killing me...
sigh~

after such a long time~

too many things happen during this 3 months....
but what i want to highlight here, my dad, Mohamed Hassan bin Surif, had passed away, on date of 22 may 2010, 8th jamadilakhir 1431, when the clock ticked at 6.35am....
i love him so much but want or not, that is fate that Allah has decide that no one cant disobey....
hurmmmm...
al-Fatihah to him...